I have to deconstruct my psyche
I have to do whatever it takes
Finding myself is the hardest part
When I don't have faith
And I don't know how to love
And I am the sum of my mistakes
This is all a crazy trip
What does it mean to have a grip?
Delusions I can have it all
The higher the peak the bigger the fall
The illusion that any of it matters
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I was walking in the darkness
Until I ran into a wall
There was someone on the other side
No use tryin' to find a place to hide
It was time for me to make a call
This is going to be a mistake
There is no reason for me to catch a break
I have to do it anyway, have to give myself a chance
To find joy, or is it pleasure
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I have to do many difficult things
To leave a legacy beyond grasping for rings
Understand everything that's going on
Including things that I can't control
To be the best man that I can
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